Two Hundred Seventy-Nine Thousand Three Hundred Sixty Minutes!

Oh, to come back from this long hiatus with a take-off on the song from Rent, it just seems a bit daft. But it was the best I could do.

Well, babysitters, I'm back. I think.

Here's the deal. It's been a rough six months: professionally, personally, psychologically -- the entire gamut of "p" words, really. Although I've been quite busy for the past six months, lots of people who work more hours than I -- and God bless 'em -- find the time to update their blogs. This leads me to conclude that my failure to post for so long could be due to laziness. I will not deny that many a night I come home, think how nice it would be to sit and hammer out an entry, and promptly sit my ass in front of the television until exhaustion forces me into sleep. But it would be dishonest to say that's the only reason I have not posted in so long a time.

I feel that I haven't really found a niche for blogging, and this has also prevented me from updating more regularly. Sure, I founded this blog for myself, and for a few of you it became a portal through which to view the goings-on in my life. Frankly I think facebook or myspace would be better suited for that. I did the weight loss tracker thing for a while because it kept me honest (update - still about where I was six months ago. Not much progress, but no backsliding, so that's okay) but I decided online diet help was not what I wanted this blog to be about. And though I enjoy posting my own thoughts and prattle, I feel my posts were becoming so much mental masturbation, and frankly I was getting a little tired of reading my own crap.

The honest, most brutal truth is that I'm afraid to be intimate with you, the purveyors of the internet in general and of this blog specifically. Don't get me wrong: I harbor no illusions that this blog is eclipsed only by perezhilton.com in terms of readership. I would guess that the number of hits this blog has ever had might number in the few hundreds (as of right now I have 310 profile views), a rather paltry sum. Regardless, I am unwilling to discuss details of my life on this blog that really don't belong in the public domain. To be perfectly frank, that would be most of them. This is not said in arrogance; indeed I think this statement would apply to most people.

So for now I'm going to decide if this blog is worth continuing. I am considering a couple of ideas for how to take this blog in a new direction that might make it worth my time to write and your time to read. In 30 days from now - that's Forty-Three Thousand Two Hundred minutes, for you Rent fans - I'll either redesign this blog or close it out. I hope to post something every few days between now and then. Feel free to leave comments.

May God be with you always, and grant you peace.